surrounded by crowds doesn't chase away literal loneliness

surrounded by crowds doesn't chase away literal loneliness
dear lord embrace me with your blessings


Thursday, December 23, 2010

Cell senescence

The clock struck 7.30 am and I’m getting ready for campus;

Atin: Wanie, tak bawak sweater ke?
Me: Tak
Atin: Tak sejuk ke?
Me: Sejuk
Atin: …….

And as I thought, Al-Razi is as cold as always; the temperature could go as low as 16˚C. For a moment, I regretted leaving my white fluffy sweater home. But of course, I did that purposely for a reason.

I purposely left my trunk-and-upper-limb-chilly-shield fabric (read: sweater) so I colud freeze myself; the proliferating cells, its chromosomes, its DNA in it, the ATP-dependant biomolecular processes, the tissues of the organs of the systems, every inch of my living, growing and AGING self so it would stay 19 forever. As absurd as it sounds, I know it won’t happen.

At this rate what makes me nothing distict from a pre-menopausal woman is the idea of having your emotion seriously distracted. Started to ask creepy questions, acting moody on a jagged onset, sudden change of temporary characters; also called the oh-my-god-I-am-turning-another-year-older syndrome, and I’ve been having one since this morning. Which I’m pretty much sure this momentarily affecting disorder can’t be observed simply through the basic clinical skills assessment.

I know this feeling will go away; I’ll live normally like any other 20 year-old fellas do and it can’t be that bad right? No biggies (and I’m smirking).

Short sketch, choral speaking and choir medley on cavernous sinus tomorrow, anticipating. If you guys made it to get me laughing out loud (and I bet you would), I'll definitely consider that as a birthday present =)

To whom it may concern 1;
Ps: Really? I’ll try to prepare mentally though

To whom it may concern 2;
Pss: Jdrama download here

FYI the Japanese version of birthday song is;
O-tanjoubi omedetou
O-tanjoubi omedetou
O-tanjoubi omedetou *insertnamehere* ni
O-tanjoubi omedetou

*don't bother bout the grammar =D

To whom it may concern 3;
Psss: Does trying to exist with others means to squeeze into the community to be noticed and approved? Yappari, I'm still the one who doesn't know how to exist with others.

To whom it may concern 4;

Aka Farhah Fakhira

I love you so much dear~

Thanks for the loooong phone call =))

1 comment:

Arrharatnasari Kachong Ma'arof said...

kak zawani..... happy birthday!!! luv u~ always feel young!hehe

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