Turning 20 part 1

Someone actually said this to me, and I quote

“If you like someone,’ attack’ his/her birthday”

I’m aware of people agreeing to the statement as well as who don’t. I on the other hand am not sure myself. True, who doesn’t like at least once in a year surrounded by people they love, people close to them singing them a birthday song right when the clock struck 12, stowing cake into their mouth followed by a kiss in the check (err.. objection, maybe ‘stowing’ is not the word cuz I’ve actually seen those who purposely smudge the cake on the face =P), and wishing them till the end of the day. Well at least I know one; Bella doesn’t like birthday surprises, because she hates it to be reminded she’s gradually getting older than Edward.

Some also thought they’ll look silly if people prank them surprise-sake and believe it or not, I know this one girl who hates her birthday celebrated for she’s afraid there would be none. So rather than hanging anticipation, to be on the safe side she refuses surprises and parties getting paranoid that nobody cares for her. But still, people throw her one and that just shows she’s surrounded by those who loved her out of literal conscious =)

I’m wasn’t born in a family that goes all out celebrating birthday, just a cake and some wishes will do. Though my earliest memory started at 3, but I can’t remember celebrating birthday party then. But mum still keep pics from my 1st birthday. I was in stripes red baby gown, just learnt how to walk she claimed. Along my growing years, seldom did I get to celebrate it with friends since it always fell on school holidays; so I didn’t get to have a cake-smudged face on my party and instead enjoyed doing it to others, maybe one of the reasons why I tried my best not to anticipate any. As ironic as it seemed, I turned 18, 19, and 20 having one, and I realized it can’t be that bad.

So what happened on my birthday?

Sudden wishes from housemates; I remember most Reen was the one leading the line =)
Inbox started to get full of best wishes; Aziey was one of the earliest =)
Facebook notifications overflood =)
The next day colleagues continued wishing =)
Some surprises from my smart circle buddies; credits to Kak Fatin, Ecot, Mimi, Yan, Tikah, Awatif =)

Here comes the climax!

So much of choral speaking has become the so-called trend of Al Razi, like I mentioned in my previous entry we were ought to make ‘Cavernous Sinus’ an interesting performance.

musical sketch by group A ~pic credits to zt~

Choral dikir by group B ~pic credits to Reen~

Choir medley by group C ~pic credits to Reen~

The topic was ‘Dangerous Area of The Face’. After some cracking-the-head-ideas squeezing veins and diseases into the scripts, pain-in-the-neck practice, and good job everyone! I was laughing along the way amused and I considered that as an indirect present from all =)

But what made me happier was when;

Dr Hisyam: Isn’t there anyone who’s going to be the emcee?
Man and I bet some of the girls too: Zawani, the birthday girl!

I know this meant sudden emceeing, but expecting Zawani Zainudin to say no to it is an off beam. I distinguished I’m not that all good in emceeing but thinking about holding the mic and having people’s attention on me all at once for even a short time is just my side hobby.

So people thanks for the surprises and wishes
Lel thanks for the cake
Janah too thanks for the cake
My smart circle sisters, thanks for the bag
Ain thanks for the phone straps
Dilah too thanks for the phone straps
Dibah thanks for the lunch
Sis Addie (read: my 2nd sis) thanks for your tiramisu
Aziey thanks for the blog post specially dedicated to me
Farhah thanks for the phone call

Ps: I’ve got 2 climaxes, fairly telling one =)
Pss: Next post, a birthday present from Sis Honey (read: my 1st sis) =)

Little sweety adorable killer whale
It rings to motions
Peeping inside a crystal cookies’ space
In baby blue enclosing sided with lollipop
Just don’t underestimate them
They’ll speak when others stay silent
(^^)…

Turning 20 prologue

I’m about to start on my ‘Turning 20’ The Series.

Reading outcomes; by the end of the reading, viewers will be able to know;
1. 20 things about me (prologue)
2. What happened on my birthday (part 1)
3. What happened a day after my birthday (part 2)
4. Thoughts and more thoughts (finale)

20 things about me - taken from Aiman’s, credits =)

1. I was supposed to be born on January 1991, but I was 3 weeks early (I wouldn’t have met you people if so)

2. So I was born on December 24th 1990, 5 minutes to midnight. Mum insisted the nurse to get me registered under the December 25th babies but the nurse refused (kalau tak mesti birthday kita sama Reen. Haha)

3. Started going to kindergarten by the age of 4. Want to know why? Because my 2nd brother who’s a year older won’t go to his pre-school without me (yeah we were that close). As a result I dozed off in class most of the time.

4. Used to be a big fan of Backstreet Boys since kindergarten till i graduated boarding school. Even thought of marrying Nick Carter once!

5. Attended boarding school for 5 years; 7 months in SMKA Segamat, and the next 4 years and 5 months was in SBPI Mersing, currently known as SMSSI aka Sultan Iskandar Science School (was the first batch back then)

6. Mum won’t allow me gone working during holidays. So yep I’ve no experience working.

7. People called me differently;
Family called me Za
Friends called me Wanie
Some called me Zwen (I suggested this)
Juniors back in school used to call me Kak Awnie (since there were a few Wanie existed)
Raja Nurul Ain Az Zahra called me Nini (fuh~ nama penuh (^^)v)
Reen called me … this is embarrassing … Chawan (sebab presentation chado tu ke? Haha)

8. My younger brother addresses me as Wanie (never heard he call me Kakak)

9. And I address my 2nd brother as Az (never call him abang even once. Huhu)

10. Never gone for friends hangout until I was 16 (was so innocent back then)

11. Never been good with numbers, wonder if I really am arithmophobic

12. I started to love English when I was 7
First choral speaking when I was 10
Experienced my first public speaking when I was 12
Joining debate team when I was 14

13. Started writing in diaries when I was 9

14. Me and my 2nd sis looked pretty much alike and people often mistaken me being the older one. Sheesh~

15. I love heels

16. I wear contact lens by day and specs by night (vision -1.0 for both eyes)

17. I can hardly eat currypuff (personally think the taste of its crust and core aren’t harmonious enough for my tongue)

18. Prefer J-entertaiment rather than K-entertainment

19. Right-handed and I’m wearing watch on my right wrist

20. Used to be a bulimic when I was a teen. Don’t worry, am a sober now. Hoho

Ps:I wish I could write more than 20, but guess best to leave it to that or else it’s going to be an endless list.
Pss: Got 3 phone straps for my birthday, means I have to use 3 cellphones?
Psss: Please anticipate the ‘Turning 20 part 1’

some nostalgic pics

Nick Carter from 'I Want it That Way' scene

See that 'Nick' in the background?

School I missed lots

The first batch, spot me?

Heroes 0307 bagde

Chawan is some of cup for chado (read: Japanese tea ceremony)

And btw Reen, I'll let you go on this. Haha

Cell senescence

The clock struck 7.30 am and I’m getting ready for campus;

Atin: Wanie, tak bawak sweater ke?
Me: Tak
Atin: Tak sejuk ke?
Me: Sejuk
Atin: …….

And as I thought, Al-Razi is as cold as always; the temperature could go as low as 16˚C. For a moment, I regretted leaving my white fluffy sweater home. But of course, I did that purposely for a reason.

I purposely left my trunk-and-upper-limb-chilly-shield fabric (read: sweater) so I colud freeze myself; the proliferating cells, its chromosomes, its DNA in it, the ATP-dependant biomolecular processes, the tissues of the organs of the systems, every inch of my living, growing and AGING self so it would stay 19 forever. As absurd as it sounds, I know it won’t happen.

At this rate what makes me nothing distict from a pre-menopausal woman is the idea of having your emotion seriously distracted. Started to ask creepy questions, acting moody on a jagged onset, sudden change of temporary characters; also called the oh-my-god-I-am-turning-another-year-older syndrome, and I’ve been having one since this morning. Which I’m pretty much sure this momentarily affecting disorder can’t be observed simply through the basic clinical skills assessment.

I know this feeling will go away; I’ll live normally like any other 20 year-old fellas do and it can’t be that bad right? No biggies (and I’m smirking).

Short sketch, choral speaking and choir medley on cavernous sinus tomorrow, anticipating. If you guys made it to get me laughing out loud (and I bet you would), I'll definitely consider that as a birthday present =)

To whom it may concern 1;
Ps: Really? I’ll try to prepare mentally though

To whom it may concern 2;
Pss: Jdrama download here http://www.yellowcinema.com/category/drama/japanese-drama/

FYI the Japanese version of birthday song is;

O-tanjoubi omedetou

O-tanjoubi omedetou

O-tanjoubi omedetou *insertnamehere* ni

O-tanjoubi omedetou

*don't bother bout the grammar =D

To whom it may concern 3;
Psss: Does trying to exist with others means to squeeze into the community to be noticed and approved? Yappari, I'm still the one who doesn't know how to exist with others.

To whom it may concern 4;

Aka Farhah Fakhira

I love you so much dear~

Thanks for the loooong phone call =))

If you think (insert premise here), then you're wrong

I’ve gone through this a lot, and now finally I can come out with my own analysis.

Extended report of my adrenaline rush;

Stage one
Fast-forward occurs; sudden skip-a-bit heartbeat takes place. At certain extent, thinking about the upcoming big awaiting event brings about tachycardia. Plus if involved atmosphere is a 16-20˚C cold lecture hall, quiver lips with gritted teeth comes into package.

Stage two
“I doubt this is the right place for me”
“I shouldn’t be here at the first place”
“This doesn’t feel like home at all”
Are common lines heard; I would try ridiculously shutting my eyes tightly wishing the next image after I open it would be my housemates in A16-05, or my group B tutormates, or even best my family at home. The next fragile thing to happen is of course tears dropping. Tough enough it held, appear brittle it shreds.

Stage three
This won’t take long, mysteriously it emerges. A total contradiction of 2nd stage; acute talkative syndrome attacks. I would start talking regardlessly, ridiculously, randomly (Read: 3R). Next line heard, “Oh my god! I can’t think straight. This is worse than falling in love!”

Stage four
Emotion, cognitivity, physiology, physical get back to normal and everything makes sense again.
“Yosh! Let’s do this!”

The 14th Royal Debate in UTHM

The second Royals experience, honestly there’s nothing really that interesting to tell. We can’t make it to semi-final*. This year just like the last, I was in the senior team. What does that mean? Well nothing much, just means that we’re much more easily crushed by other way more experienced teams. But still, it was a good exposure. Faye, Hanisah, Maryam thanks for being in the team.

Cuppys from our friendly runners

Before role call

This house will make dating websites compensate for cheated spouses
This house shouldn’t give mandatory death for its drug traffickers
This house should endorse the right to nuclear weapon
This house believes that food aid gives destruction to recipients’ economy

On the welcoming dinner night

Stalked! Guna phone Faye je pun~

*Not telling doesn’t mean cheating. Actually we didn’t even get to go to quarter-final; stuck at preliminary.

The best part having your sis home is, you boleh rembat pakai baju die~

Ps: If you think Zawani Zainudin can’t get fat, then you’re wrong
Pss: Anticipating choral speaking for anatomy. Ok, gen05 started this choral thingy trend, so we have to pay for it.