surrounded by crowds doesn't chase away literal loneliness

surrounded by crowds doesn't chase away literal loneliness
dear lord embrace me with your blessings


Monday, January 9, 2012

The blatant side of me

this is going to be just a short update.

warning: for your next 5 minutes, you might be able to see the honest side of zawani zainudin.

it's our study week now, and the first paper is going to be this friday (Aqidah Islamiah and Akhlak subject). though this is considered a minor one, preparation is mandatory. then all the core subjects are coming the following weeks; a total of 5 (parasitology, microbiology, pharmacology, pathology and community health).

despite days free of classes and lectures, for some reasons i find it comfortable coming to campus, staying in the lecture hall (postulated to be due to its matter-of-fact studying environment) but i don't know.

note that i am right now updating thru my iPod. and if i did so, it means i'm writing an impromptu post. this might be quite close to an honest disclosure rather than the usual indirect-complicated-i-don't-know-what-you're-talking-about-entry.

simply because exam is near and time's too gold so i won't spend so much time squeezing my head for bombastic words, and then recheck grammatical errors over again just so i won't jeopardize of my reputation (duh~).

so yeah. just treat this as some sort of my typical diary entry and because of that, you should consider yourself damned lucky for being able to read this!

OMG! was it just me or this exam mode is really interrupting my normal cognition ability. forgive me for all the blatant disclosure.

i met my lecturer today and here's what she said;

"in medical, the theme is 'studying' by hook or by crook".

seriously it's that simple. of course that's the only way.

i didn't know how to study until i got into medical school. high school? well it was just the alternate routines of sleeping in class, memorizing, answering past years' questions and experiencing puppy love.

worrying whether or not you manage to finish reading all is one thing, and worrying whether or not you manage to retent those memories until that very last minutes answering exam papers is another thing.

i said this before in front of my colleagues in class and i hereby would like to remind myself again at the first place;

'if you're still worrying, it shows that you haven't been praying enough'

true enough. O Allah, please give me strength.

oh. i thought it was supposed to be a short update, was it? never mind.

till then everybody, that was zawani zainudin being honest and blatant.

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