Deeper than usual

Somehow I felt like I sank deeper into bed than usual
It must be this heavy heart
I'm pretty much sure it isn't hypertrophy
maybe the infection of migrated malignant melancholy
thus left the scar of adhesion debris

Less than 100

I figured out there’s always an awesome way to work for an entry when my blog has gone spider-webbed a bit while I still ended up idea-less. Go blog walking and voila! Found an entry that got me tagged.

Credits to Zul, thanks for tagging at the first place (since a month ago), it was supposed to be a questionnaire of 100, but I know he had deleted some unfavorable questions himself that they’d gone less. So I’m gonna do the same and left these surveys I feel like answering.

the banner

2. Nickname: wanie, zwen
4. Male/Female: female
12. Phone or camera: phone with camera
14. Orange or apple: apple
15. Do u have a crush on someone: that’s a hobby
16. Eat or drink?: both
17. Piercing: never
18. Pepsi or coke: I don’t favor carbonated drinks
19. Been in an airplane: yep

21. Been in a car accident: small ones
22. Been in a fight: yep
25. 1st award: sukaneka masa tadika
26. 1st crush: Nick Carter

32. Last food u ate: kebab
33. Last movie u watch: the chasing world
34. Last song u listened to: Official girl by Cassie
35. Last thing u bought: antiseptic
36. Last person u hugged: Anie

Favorites...
39. Bottoms: jeans or slacks
42. Colors: blue
43. Movie: Initial D
44. Subjects: english

Have You Ever...
45. Fallen in love with someone: always
46. Celebrated Halloween: nope
47. Had your heart broken: casually
48. Went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone: yep, checking if I missed anything
49. Wanted to smack someone upside the head: screw the annoying people
51. Eaten a whole standard sized pizza: tak larat
52. Tried to do something, but couldn't succeed : pretty frequent
53. Did something you regret: yes
54. Broke a promise: yes (miserably)
55. Hid a secret: of course!
56. Pretended to be happy: it’s a habit
58. Pretended to be sick: tak pernah kot (cuz I’m a bad liar ;P)
59. Left the country: haven’t
61. Cried over the silliest thing: when Jay Park left 2PM
62. Ran 5 miles: back to the old days in school
63. Went to the beach with your best friends: yes
64. Got into an argument with your friends: yes
65. Hated someone: occasionally
66. Stayed single for a whole year: yep

Your Future?
73. Want kids: positive
74. Want to get married: positive

Have You Ever...
83. Lost glasses/contacts: contacts
88. Been in love: I am
89. Cried when someone died: yes

Do You Believe In...
90. Yourself: most of the time
92. Love at first sight: nope
96. God : the Almighty Allah

Truthfully...
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now: my family
100. Would you change something in your life: to stop stimulating economy too much

A long day has ended

-This entry was supposed to be posted yesterday-

Surprisingly I’m still alive despite gotten bruised all over...

My day started beautifully with the recitation of the holy Quranic verses for hafazan class, continued with 2 hours lecture of Aqidah and Akhlak.

The unnecessary adrenaline rush somehow visited during lunch hour, while Syahirah and I were ought to prepare the riddles*.

We were throwing out a little welcoming party for our little juniors (that didn’t seem so much like one); it was more like playing games together so we could know each other a bit. It ended somewhere before 1am.

Anyway, just in case you’re wondering; this whole idea of playing such games actually derived from a group of k-entertainment fetishist (with anonymous identity)

Running Man

Riddles and code breaking
Mission card
The syllable guessing game
Speed quiz
Spoiler group tag chasing
etc

It’s an awesome ongoing variety show (I think my abdomen nearly hardens as a result of continuous laughing)

As I was too busy playing around, I got less opportunity to ogle for some cute guys. So I only get to capture some girls’ pic.

Honestly I don’t get it why would I write something about the orientation. Just how many of these juniors really read my blog anyway? But still, sooner or later if you guys happen to stumble on this page, it’s nice to know that this humble senior of yours had once made you guys the main subject for her entry.

Welcome to FPSK dear juniors!

Gosh! I feel old!

Ps: *not to mention the 2 hour pharmaco lecture
Pss: I’m sure a Running Man lover, but still nothing has beaten my J-stuff fetish

My heart pounds

The perfect breeze swiftly
Running through the dancing curtains
This silent night

With my earphone plugged in
It’s The End by McFly

Gives the sense of longing
My heartbeat fluctuates

…..or was it the caffeine?

You won't understand why I like him

Why do we fall in love? Sometimes people around just don't get it why.

Yes I admit it; I'm in love right now.

She asked me
'Why did you like him? He's not that good-looking'

*clear throat*

1) People don't fall in love over just good looks (though I did this time)
2) You won't understand even if I tell you. Because if you do, we'll fall in love with the same person

Hint: people I fall for is always on the desktop background*

Daito Shunsuke

Only one thing I've got to say.

He's from Osaka!
☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆

Daito-san, ima kara yoroshiku onegaishimasu ne~
(Made it sound real. Hohoho)

Ps: back to flipping nihon-go dictionary after ages
Pss: and it changes*

Music Room After School

I don’t have the perfect pitch. I hardly gotten my ‘do re mi’ notes accurate, but I do know some good music.

One piece that moves me recently was called Music Room After School by Gontiti.

It is awesome. Sitting down and listening to it, I could sense as such various good music been well-blended within one piece, beautifully.

- When You Say Nothing At All by Ronan Keating
- Modern remix version of Thank You by Im Hyun Jung
- Wonderful World by Louis Armstrong
- Swan Lake Ballet by Tchaikovsky
- Music Infantil of Disney’s animation, Peter Pan

Detailing along the music score, as such literally the piece has a wedge drove between them; one part represents reality and fantasy for another. It could easily be told apart from the mixing of modern and classical instruments alternately.

Boundary between reality and fantasy on the music score, I call it.

Girl playing harp

Ps: back to become a J-stuff otaku

L.O.A.D. Club

Despite the sickening long 4-month-holiday, surprisingly most of us are still reluctant to revert to life being a medical student.

There are 2 types of medical students;
1) those who enjoy being one
2) those who don’t.

I’m quite both.

In the mode of anticipating the hustle and bustle of being in 3rd year, plainly it’s quite the season for me to start blogging back. Thinking that hiatus from writing an entry runs parallel to the holiday might be the reason why my brain refused squeezing ideas and my fingers declined to do the typing.

A friend insisted my updates. She claimed I was too quiet, no news, no gossips. I admitted that but don’t worry, I wont go to an extent getting married silently at least. That was one thing. Another thing is either;
1) my updates were too lame or
2) they were too personal

Here’s the thing, imagine you’re guilty but you’re too ego to apologize. The misunderstandings piled up, the two of you stopped talking to each other. At one point, you realized it was your fault. Only you’ve gone too far that you don’t know how to turn back. This explains why some people refuse to apologize.

So it’s quite on the same ground, apart from keeping my brain on holiday too, things I wished to share on my blog kept piling up that I don’t know where to start. So I decided not to start at all. At this rate, an awesome booster would be cool (mine for instance, I need some attention to graduate from my LOAD Club*).

Back to starting the new term, the best word to describe is AWKWARD.

It’s yet still awkward
To put on baju kurung after shower
To get on bus early in the morning
To scribble on papers during lectures
To squeeze into a crowded elevator
It has been too long that everything has turned foreign

I secretly wondered if I had applied my foundation too thick. Oh it was the 1st day of lecture (Damned! Screw the awkwardness!)

Anyways, hurray for tomorrow! (It’s Friday). Dear Mr.Weekend, please handcuff this naughty little fella (read: awkwardness).

It has been too long that we’re back too square one

*Lack Of Attention Disorder Club

how's my new glasses?

Untouchable

'I wanna be untouchable, so that I don't have to deal with other people'

There are 2 options;

1) be too superior

2) seclude yourself